As you know, and if you don’t I am about to enlighten you; I will not solve the war on canser, BUT I am set to fight every bloody battle it throws my way.
This Thursday (November 20, 2008) starts another such battle. Its not always easy to hear – but I love my oncologist and he lets me know in such a positive way that it immediately reminds me of the reality of my situation and the immediate positives. Ask Rick, I was excited! I knew the scan came back with something. My lung has stared ever so lightly to ache and on October 31/08 I had sent Rick an email saying that something was going on – it hurt BAD my chest for about 15 minutes….then stopped. SO I new the scan on November 3rd would result in another hic up.
THE POSITIVE of this hic up? Same-o chemo as the first time – a repeat of treatments. The first line was so successful that it was extended to 8 sessions. STILL shrinking but NOT as much as the first 5/6 sessions – it was decided by all that after 8 we would stop as this may cause more harm to my good cells and my strength then kill more canser cells.
So now after 5 months we begin again. There are 2 in the lung that have started to grow – and a new one on the adrenal gland – the size of a pea. After two sessions; they will do a scan – if its not showing any shrinkage THEN we immediately switch over to the next line of chemo therapy possiblities.
Your still wondering what is so positive?? I know what to expect with this treatment; I am already bald from the radiation to the brain – AND it leaves wide open a whole variety of possible treatments for the future; and for now its every 3 weeks – the move into the new house is a bit a head ache, as I am right into treatment; BUT have already asked my sisters to come spend a day in doing some packing for me. The rest is being moved by a company. THEN again…..I am more positive about the treatment then this witch buying our house! lol
I am trying to get me off of the steroids. A slight nightmare. I HATE discomfort and let me tell you I am lucky to even be able to stand at times. I think I scared the beejesus out of my mom, she popped over and the boys being down stairs did not hear our KNOCK on the door – so I got up “too fast” – by the time I got to the door, my only decision was… do I fall into the wall as I would normally OR into my mom…the softest of the two won that one! She went home to sit by the phone ….she was sure Rick would call with the worst news….. NO mom JUST be glad your kids were never into body building!
So that is my update. My boys already know as I have promised to keep them up to date minute by minute! LMAO sorry just had to laugh again about my Mattie – he sees the photos of my swollen face and panics…..OH MY LORD you would have thought he had read I was dead. He panicked – called Tyler etc….. sorry baby boy – canser is NOT always pretty! BUT inside Matt – I still FEEL like a gorgeaus woman.
OK that is a lie – I feel like a blimp – look like one – and still need to get over the staring – I feel comfortable at the canser clinic where everyone knows and understands….but alas life is here and going out 2 or three times a week with Rick or my parents or inlaws to shop – a TREAT!!!!
I refuse to hide – the battles MUST be seen to be won with any sense of meaning.
I feel I should break into a song of “Onward Christian Soldier” ….BUT that is all I know of the TUNE! hahahahahaha
p.s I gotta move – we are getting a cleaning service to come every week for a few hours to help me out….I GOTTA MOVE!!!!